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05/30/2004 Entry: "ok a continuation"

So continuing on the catch up. May has been a month of catching up with lost connections particularly friends that I have lost touch with. I have been blessed with a particularly full life for the past ten years or so and I am very bad at keeping in touch with friends after I move away or move jobs. Partly it is because I get consumed by the present, and the circle of friends that I am surrounded by at the time, partly because I am lazy and mostly because I am embarrassed by how much time I let go by between contacts. I have a hard time thinking that I am important to people. This is not a plea for attention so don't tell me how important I am to you. I have had people tell it to me in the past, I have a hard time intruding on lives that no longer contain events that I can relate to. There are only a few friends that I have kept in touch with in any regularity. By that I mean one. The one that lives in Atlanta that I just visited. That being said I am trying to change that about myself because I have never had any pride in that fact. This month I contacted two friends from Miami, and a group of people that Jeannie and I really connected with on our trip to China. They wrote me back and I will write them again soon.

This month was my Birthday. It was May 13th and a lot of people came to it, I am grateful to all of them, even grateful to those that tried to make it on such short notice but couldn't quite. Maybe it is that event that has me reexamining my life. How cliche. Why does it take an event like that to make one realize that ones life is not as it should be. Why does it take a revolution around the sun, an arbitrary measure of time like that. If we were on Saturn we would only have a birthday every thirty years, a hell of a long time to have an epiphany, or go on a diet. I don't know why all of the sudden I drink more water, exercise more, watch less TV, write more, read more, try to expand my sphere of influence, keep in touch with more of my past, feel like having less stuff. Some people have said it is because I am 29 so Saturn is returning into my astrological chart. I'll accept that. But does that mean I have to wait until I am 58 to see what errors I have made in my everyday from now until then. That kind of sucks. I am going to get a picture of Saturn and stick in front of my computer to remind me that change doesn't have to start at a set date or time. I don't want to be a new years resolutionist and a groundhogs revisionist.
For the past week I have only watched one hour of TV a day. It is probably one of the best things I have done in a while. I have always been a TV addict it influences my interaction with the world every day. Everything reminds me of something on Tv. Whether its a story, a conversation, a commercial. I have been raised by TV. My father used to repair Tvs back when they were all vacuum tubes in the back. So we always had a TV, even when they were really expensive. He would salvage them off the street and fix them or if the customer thought the set was to expensive to fix My dad would take it home and fix it, same thing with VCR's. When I was five in 1980 we already had three TVs. Two were in the living room. One on top of the other. a thirteen inch color on top of a nineteen inch black and white that had a stereo built in. It had an 8-track player and a turntable built in. In my parents house right now there are 7 Tvs in different areas of the house including that thirteen inch that still works in the basement. I don't feel like I am missing much because I don't like reality Tv the way I liked older programs. I am a sitcom person a drama watcher. I just don't think that i can learn anything from watching a reality TV show the way I could by watching All in the family, Goodtimes, facts of life, or the A-team. I still like Law and Order, The George Lopez show, the Daily show, and Adult Swim on cartoon network. But I can fit all of that stuff into one hour a day. So why watch more.

There is more stuff that happened between now and April 13th I am sure but Its all a jumble right now. I am going to Paris on Wednesday with Jeannie. It is her first time going and my fourth. I am sure I will love it.

Today's song of the day is "America is not the World" from Morrissey's new album You are the Quarry

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Holy shit, a friggin' world traveler here! China, Paris, go you, man!

Enjoy it as much as is humanly possible!!

Does that mean you wont be coming to my party? :-(

Posted by Dyanna @ 06/01/2004 09:00 AM EST